Below is an edited version of the early chat conversations between SchoolSafetyPatrol and HollyGoNightly. Thanks to both of them for sharing this:
AIM IM with Holly Go Nightly 3/16/07 9:33 PM
School Safety Patrol: hello.
Holly Go Nightly: hi
SSO: this is [name removed]… from myspace.
HGN: i figured 🙂
SSO: cuz u smart!
HGN: lol some people think so
SSO: nice to meet you.
HGN: nice to “meet” you too lol
SSO: so let me ask you something.
SSO: did you get to see “enrichment time” at tiger mountain?
HGN: lol enrichment time? no
SSO: 2-3x a day the handlers go in and pull down a section of the wall.
SSO: and there’s just a netting between you and the ladies.
SSO: and the handlers bring over the tigers and give them treats and stuff.
HGN: oh my god
HGN: i would just die 🙂
SSO: i have a cool pic, they get them to get up on their hind feet so you can see their belly.
SSO: white with black spots.
HGN: oh gosh, gorgeous
SSO: did you see the other cats at the zoo?
SSO: panthers? snow leopards?
HGN: i didn’t have time, i spent all of it with the tigers
HGN: we went right after school, and on that day the zoo closed early or something
SSO: well if you ever want company for another trip.
HGN: and i was there just to study the tigers’ movements and such…. i need to go back lol
SSO: i’m always up for going.
SSO: the panthers are awesome.
HGN: i bet 🙂
SSO: i have a pic of one on my myspace.
SSO: they look at you like you’re lunch.
HGN: lol i saw that one
HGN: they’re still beautiful lol
SSO: definitely. but terrifying.
SSO: not like my old lady here.
HGN: maybe that’s why i love big cats… they’re beautiful and powerful and dangerous…
SSO: just to complete my tiger-geek cred, if you google “tiger island” you’ll see there’s this theme park in australia called “dreamland.”
HGN: yes, i know
SSO: where all these tigers have been hand raised and are walked around on leashes
HGN: my mom was just in australia….. but i don’t think she went there….
SSO: i’m going before i die.
HGN: lol fuck, me too
SSO: so what are you doing now?
SSO: just killing time in the dorm room because it sucks out?
HGN: basically lol
SSO: cheap thrills.
HGN: i’m not going out tonight because tomorrow’s st. patty’s day and so we’re all going out then
HGN: besides, i have rehearsal tomorrow morning
SSO: rehearsal then DRINKING!
HGN: lol i don’t really drink that much
HGN: i’ll probably get a little drunk
HGN: but not sloshed lol
HGN: then again, who knows :_P
SSO: probably wise.
SSO: but leave your options open!
HGN: lol exactly
SSO: so where are the dorms?
HGN: in the [name removed] hotel, actually
SSO: oh wow.
SSO: your dorm’s in a hotel.
HGN: lol yeah
HGN: people hear i live in a hotel and they’re like “oh that must be awesome!” but it’s just like a dorm…. and all the people on my floor are all students
SSO: on the plus side, [NYC transit hub] is right there…
HGN: i have a roommate and everything
SSO: and the good movie theater on [street name removed].
SSO: not so bad.
HGN: and my school is only about 10 blocks away, so i can walk
HGN: there are sirens and car horns, but i’ve gotten used to them
SSO: lol. i wear earplugs when i sleep now.
HGN: when i went home for christmas break, i actually had a tough time going to sleep because it was too damn quiet
SSO: ears ringing?
SSO: from the silence?
HGN: lol yeah
SSO: i remember that.
HGN: which is so weird, cause i mean i grew up with the silence. and then i live here for a few months and i can’t sleep without noise 😛
SSO: btw, i love the 5th element pic you have.
SSO: great reference. one of my favorite movies.
HGN: me too
HGN: i dye my hair a lot….
SSO: that’s cool.
HGN: keeps things interesting
SSO: you have tattoos or piercings?
HGN: 2 piercings in each ear, and a [removed design] tattoo on my [body part]
SSO: ok that’s pretty cool.
SSO: i was never a big fan of tattoos.
HGN: my sister and i each got the same tattoo over break, sort of a bonding thing
HGN: it took some convincing for our parents to give in lol
SSO: i bet!
HGN: but it’s small, it means something, and it’s on my [body part] so i can hide it easily
SSO: so what color is the hair now?
HGN: lol brown
HGN: i’m naturally a blonde
SSO: i was assuming you weren’t a natural “blue”
HGN: lol unfortunately not
SSO: my cat is hopping around giving me these little mouth-close meows.
HGN: i miss talking to my cats…. i would always repeat whatever sound they made and we would “talk” lol
SSO: i do that.
SSO: little purr-meows and grunts
HGN: hehe yup 🙂
SSO: i got woken up with a cat-sneeze to my face at point-blank range yesterday.
SSO: that was a new one.
HGN: [removed link to facebook album of Holly’s cats]
HGN: lol cat sneezes are cute….
HGN: my kitties 😀
HGN: [cat A]’s “mine” and [cat B] is my sister’s
SSO: or “sistas!”
HGN: [cat A]’s the really sweet one… [cat B] is more spastic
SSO: they look fun.
SSO: how old?
HGN: 8 or 9, i think
HGN: but they still act like little kitties
HGN: i could go on and on about them…….
SSO: i KNOW!
SSO: trust me.
SSO: i have to stop myself with people because i think i’m starting to freak them out.
HGN: lol i know
HGN: it’s like, i know you really don’t care, but i have to tell you all about my cats……
SSO: well hey, it’s an important part of your life.
HGN: yes, they are
SSO: it just happens to involve two little fuzzy girls.
SSO: so how long have you been in nyc?
HGN: since october
SSO: how do you like it so far?
SSO: culture shock?
HGN: oh i love it here 🙂
HGN: a little bit…. but i’ve visited new york three times before and i could always see myself living here
SSO: and you’re not in the most optimal living situation… so that’s a good sign if you like it at this point.
HGN: ha, yeah
HGN: i can’t wait until i get my own apartment lol
SSO: you know when that’ll be?
HGN: hopefully august
HGN: it depends on if i get asked back for second year at my school
SSO: you have to get asked back?
HGN: it’s not a regular college, it’s a 2 year academy
HGN: yeah, it’s actually really nice that i don’t have to take core classes like math lol
SSO: specifically for acting or musical theater or performance in general or?
HGN: specifically for acting
HGN: though we take dance and singing as well, because it’s all relative and it helps with acting
HGN: though i’ve done musical theater, too
SSO: i had to take directing, editing, acting…
SSO: all that stuff.
SSO: acting was fun but i don’t think i was any good.
HGN: well if it’s not what you want to do for the rest of your life
SSO: i just realized it wasn’t a strength.
HGN: singing’s not a strength of mine, but i like doing it
SSO: this is what i’m saying.
HGN: whatever makes you happy, i think that’s what you should do 🙂
SSO: as long as it doesn’t hurt anyone.
SSO: and preferably if you can make a living doing it.
HGN: lol yeah, that’s the hard part
HGN: (i just put in one of my favorite movies… shakespeare in love 🙂 )
SSO: are you avoiding someone(s)?
SSO: with the away msg?
HGN: oh no, i just always have it on
HGN: if i didn’t, i would be bombarded with 7 ims and therefore have 7 conversations going at once…. and if someone does im me that i don’t feel like talking to…. well i’m “away” aren’t i?
HGN: you’re not the first person to complain about it lol
SSO: not complaining.
SSO: just noticing.
HGN: ah ic
SSO: the repeating might get a little much.
SSO: i have a thing for ichat that makes it only once per convo.
HGN: i can take it off, if you prefer
SSO: not on my account.
SSO: i’ll live. 🙂
HGN: lol well i hope so
SSO: i’m looking at your facebook photos.
HGN: lol oh no
SSO: should i stop?
HGN: do whatever you want lol
HGN: i just know there are some crazy ones in there lol
SSO: i’d expect nothing less!
SSO: day glow green!
SSO: where’s the batchelor party at?
HGN: bachelor party?
SSO: looks like you’re all on your way to one.
SSO: in that photo.
HGN: lol what photo?
SSO: on facebook
SSO: black outfits and dayglo green trim.
HGN: ohhhhh that was for a tap dance
SSO: i figured.
SSO: jazz hands and everything!
HGN: lol no jazz hands in that one… just benny goodman 🙂
SSO: btw, you’re really cute.
SSO: i’m looking for a bad pic and i can’t find one. lol.
HGN: well, thank you
HGN: lol there are some in there, believe me……
HGN: find any pictures you really like?
SSO: oh for sure.
HGN: i’m a curious person…. which ones? lol
SSO: ok let’s see…
SSO: well your headshots are great.
HGN: those were taken fairly recently….
SSO: let me get back to the myspace once.
HGN: the myspace ones are in my facebook ones….
SSO: well you picked winners for myspace.
SSO: ok so i love the red hair.
SSO: so that’s a winner.
HGN: i’m probably going back to red soon….
HGN: i used to be red all the time
SSO: the next two are great. just head/shoulders of you with brown hair.
HGN: until a play called for me to dye my hair
SSO: it looks like you have almost no makeup on in those.
HGN: well good, cause i am wearing it lol
SSO: just a bit of eyeliner?
SSO: and lip stuff?
HGN: eyeshadow, eyeliner, mascara, foundation, blush, probably some kind of lip stuff
SSO: well nicely done.
HGN: thank you
SSO: the biting nails one is my favorite.
HGN: i like that one too
SSO: the friday night one is good too.
HGN: ha yeah, one of my guy friends was like ‘what?? it looks like you just got fucked’ when he saw that picture….
SSO: well that’s just the “messy” hair.
HGN: lol yeah
SSO: but the color and style are great
HGN: well thanks
SSO: and the choker is a turn on.
HGN: i do that a lot with ribbon
SSO: for me anyway.
SSO: what’s the story with [a cute girl kissing Holly in a photo]
SSO: she looks a little concerned.
HGN: she’s just one of my close friends, nothing has ever happened sexually between us
SSO: that’s funny tho.
HGN: her boyfriend was like ‘you two get together’ and that’s the result lol
HGN: i know, she’s adorable
SSO: is she at school in nyc with you?
HGN: no, she’s a junior in high school
HGN: her boyfriend and i have been friends for a long time, so that’s the connection
HGN: and when we met, we just really hit it off
HGN: lol thanks for the comment….
SSO: one more there.
SSO: so if you’re feeling inspired at any point here, feel free to drop another “i’ll answer anything” question on me.
HGN: lol ditto
SSO: well i’m not easily offended.
SSO: or grossed out.
HGN: what makes you think i’m easily offended? lol
SSO: well i don’t know!
SSO: because you seem like a nice girl.
HGN: lol ah it’s all a facade 😉
SSO: maybe with a demon inside, but i don’t know that.
HGN: i give off the impression of being sweet and innocent, but don’t let that fool you lol
SSO: oh really now?
SSO: well that just warms my dark heart.
SSO: well, assuming it’s not just talk.
HGN: it’s not
SSO: well then.
SSO: let the interrogation begin.
SSO: you’ve had sex?
HGN: lol yes
SSO: hey, gotta start somewhere.
SSO: what’s the point of me asking if you like being tied up if you haven’t even had sex yet?
HGN: do i honestly look like a virgin? lol
SSO: you look innocent enough.
SSO: i bet you’d be fun to meet.
SSO: would you be into that?
HGN: meeting you?
HGN: i’d like to get to know you a bit more first
SSO: of course.
HGN: i’m always a bit hesitant and careful to meet people online
SSO: i was NOT thinking tonight.
HGN: lol no not tonight
HGN: i’m not going out in this weather
SSO: well let’s see.
SSO: ok tell me about sex. what do you like?
HGN: lol oh boy, let’s see…
SSO: you’ve got a guy… you’re into him. you can do anything you want.
HGN: well i would want him to do what he wants to me…. i love to be dominated
HGN: oh yes
SSO: just physically or psychologically.
SSO: taking orders.
SSO: stuff like that?
SSO: that’s cool.
SSO: what is it you like about being submissive?
HGN: i honestly don’t know. i’m a bit of a masochist in bed, so i guess that’s part of it. it’s funny, cause i’m kind of a feminist but being dominated turns me on more than anything
HGN: i guess it’s the idea that the guy thinks i’m so attractive and hot, that he HAS to have me no matter what
SSO: there’s noting anti-feminist about taking ownership of your own preferences in bed.
SSO: so like master/slave stuff or just hold you down and ravish you.
SSO: how much of this have you actually done, versus just fantasize about?
HGN: i’ve never really done any role playing like that, but i’ve been called names, held down, spanked, choked, tied up, had my hair pulled, been “forced”….
SSO: ok so some basic stuff.
HGN: i like pain in bed, but to a certain degree. no blood or anything
SSO: no scars.
SSO: nothing permanent.
HGN: i’m an actress, i have to keep my looks lol
SSO: no black eyes.
HGN: yeah that would be bad lol
HGN: though my back has been scratched so hard i’ve had marks for days… and i’ve been spanked so hard i’ve had bruises
SSO: i like dominating but i haven’t found anyone i’m comfortable enough with.
HGN: how do you mean?
SSO: well, i have to trust her that she REALLY wants to remove all the safetys on my whatever… personality in bed i guess.
SSO: and i have never felt that freedom from anyone.
SSO: to let go.
SSO: it’s frustrating.
HGN: what would you do if you could let go?
SSO: that’s just it. i don’t know how far i’d go. probably as far as she’d let me.
SSO: i haven’t even had the freedom to imagine.
SSO: but it’s a growing problem because sex has been boring for me. i haven’t met the right girl.
HGN: i understand
HGN: my last boyfriend “didn’t want to hurt me”
HGN: i know lol
SSO: so when was the last time you had it the way you like it?
SSO: and why didn’t it continue?
HGN: cause he’s in michigan and i’m here lol
HGN: i’m from michigan, btw
SSO: so will you egg the guy on to get what you want?
HGN: that’s kind of the opposite of domination lol
SSO: not necessarily.
HGN: i don’t like to tell the guy what i want him to “force” me or tell me to do….
SSO: got it.
SSO: just got a meow in the face.
HGN: awww 🙂
SSO: this was a loud long one.
SSO: she’s an alto.
SSO: she’s got a busted grill, hard of hearing… eyesight sucks at close range.
HGN: awwww sweetheart
SSO: she got one big fang on the right top.
SSO: and she knows how to use it if she needs to.
HGN: i do have a question to ask of you…..
HGN: you do realize how old i am, right?
HGN: lol ok
HGN: just making sure
SSO: do you?
HGN: last i checked i was 19
SSO: i mean do you realize how old i am.
SSO: well it doesn’t bother me.
HGN: my last boyfriend was 33; age is really just a number to me
SSO: i’ve had relationships with girls older than me as well…
SSO: my honest feeling is that, it’s hard enough to find someone you can connect with.
HGN: i’ve always dated guys who were at least a year older than i lol
SSO: to limit it.
SSO: so if you and i get along, great. if not… that’s cool.
HGN: that’s how i feel
HGN: according to people, i don’t act like a 19 year old anyway lol
SSO: well maybe i’ll find out for myself some day.
SSO: then again, maybe i won’t.
HGN: lol who knows
SSO: hang on. i’ll get on my imac.
SSO: that has vid.
HGN: lol ok
HGN: this might not work… my cam tends not to work well on aim….
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